So This Is It....

Here I am, last night in my room, in the house that I grew up in... I have been so busy for the past 2 months, even though half of it was drinking and goodbyes, I never really let it set in. I am leaving.  For real.  Tomorrow morning.  
I am getting more excited by the minute, but I am having trouble leaving my grandparents.  No matter how I try to go about it, how carefree I try and keep it, I'm having separation anxiety.  The girl that was affectionately known as the "Little Orphan" is so surrounded by familiar love, I could just die.  
I don't have much more to say, I am very overwhelmed, and I refuse to cry.  I will say though, it was much easier to leave my city, family and friends, as a bitter, hateful, drug addled teenager.  Not as the true prodigal child.  Only way to move now is forward.  I love you Los Angeles, I ran from you for years, but this time I leave with hope, not despair.  Thank you everyone in my life for everything.  See ya on the other side.